Quarantine

I know I'm not the first to say it, but it's a simple fact- pandemic life isn't for me. Yes, yes I know it's best for us all to stay inside, I know there's nothing we can do but wait and I know like all other things, this too shall pass.

But that doesn't mean I have to be okay with it. And I most certainly am not.

I've never been one of those people with hundreds of friends and a thousand more acquaintances. I've always had a small, tight knit handful of friends who mean the world to me. And to be apart from them for months on end- boy, I never thought it would be such a struggle. Of course, the most obvious argument is, "you have phones, you have social media, it shouldn't be hard to keep in touch with them" and yes, you're right, but what more do you talk about after it has been established that you're bored, stuck at home with nothing to do? How do you tell your friends that you feel low when you don't know the reason yourself? How do you stay civil with them when you get left on delivered for hours and hours, even though you know full well yourself that there's nothing to talk about?
What bothers me more is, will it ever be the same again? I'm nowhere near the same person I was when quarantine started, and I don't think anyone else is, either. What if we're just not each other's type anymore? What if we forget how to exist around eachother, be with eachother when things go back to normal? What if this is the new normal?

But what I hate most about quarantine are these thoughts. These never-ending, continuous, unanswerable stream of questions, eating away at my head at every second of the day. There is no escape, no distractions. Everyday, waking up, knowing I have the whole day penned out ahead of me, nothing to look forward to, nothing different from yesterday, everything the same as it will be tomorrow. Just one thought after another is all I have to keep me company, slowly driving me mad until the day I completely lose my mind.

And if you dare tell anyone you feel that way?

"Just try to keep yourself distracted". "Take up a new hobby". "You're going to have to get used to it, this is how things will be for a while". "It could be worse".

"Same."

All I want is for you to just tell me everything will be fine, soon. Tell me it's just a matter of time. Tell me it's all okay.

Please. I'm starting to lose hope.


Comments

  1. Malvika22 July 2020 at 09:02

    I actually love this, I know you might think I'm saying this cause I'm your friend but it's true. Don't lose hope :)

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  2. Rishabh22 July 2020 at 09:08

    ik you got my back and I have got your’s for sure! It’s all going be ok and we will truly value our friends more than ever before once this all ends!

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  3. Anonymous22 July 2020 at 09:18

    This is so accurate, everything will be okay slowly but surely

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  4. Krish22 July 2020 at 09:22

    Always there for you fam. Love you ❤️

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  5. Aadhya22 July 2020 at 09:51

    Everything is going to be better than okay :)

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  6. Anonymous23 July 2020 at 11:26

    Lowkey really really needed to see this. Although, from my point of view, everyone's away from each other and they're all waiting to be together so we're all going to be extremely happy when we're out of this, yeah? Idk if this helps but know that your thoughts can't win unless you let them. Everything's going to be okay, we're all going to be fine. Have a little faith, it's going to work itself out.

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  7. Anonymous23 July 2020 at 11:28

    Not to kill the vibe but vaccines are ready for mass production. This doesnt apply anymore lol

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  8. aindreem14 August 2021 at 06:16

    You should but shorn’t

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